Oct
24
2009
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Fashion isnt about keeping the rules, its about breaking them :-)
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MANDYLAND
I'm just sayin.
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Oct
20
2009
Video of the day
I COULD NOT LOVE THIS SONG MORE. I want to hug everyone is this band.
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Oct
14
2009
Ohbtw.
- I taught my mom what btw meant. That’s not the point of this post. Just an fyi.
- I’m flying to Michigan to see Cuppycake and to hug him for the first time ever. And to freeze my ass off.
- I’m flying to France to see Blairy Blair McBlairson to hug for the first time…in France…and to see France!!
- I’m choreographing a lyrical piece to Revelation Song. And my Balanchine pointe piece is the hardest ever! And the Christmas performance is to “How in the World” by Fam Force Five…yep. Gonna rock.
- Actually this post has no point.
- I just saw a Bi-Lo transfer truck go by on the interstate. I’m glad I don’t work at Bi-Lo anymore. They went bankrupt. I think Food Lion is buying them.
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Oct
14
2009
Hi rain and moodswings.
When is it going to stop??! Really, I like rain, but in doses. When it’s this cold, and this much rain…I just want to curl up in a blankie, in my pjs, and watch dumb sappy movies. But alas, I’m here: in my freezing office, in high heels and a skirt too thin for this weather, entering invoices and being bored…oh yea, and drinking passion tea (best part).
Speaking of being miserable…what’s up mood swings?! It’s amazing where my emotions can go in 5 mins! I’ve been having really annoying back and hip pains. I haven’t injured them- my back just pulls constantly and I’ve popped and stretched it, my hip randomly gives out and pulls. (Seriously I sound like I’m 90!)
So the other night I’m getting ready for bed and my back is killing me, and whenever I would sit or lay down it would just pull more. I got SO frustrated I was imagining how good it might feel to stick a fork in my back (psycho…) then I got to the pissed off stage where I wanted to destroy my room, and then I was crying my usual I’m-so-pissed-I’m-gonna-cry tears, and then I was crying because only one pair of my jeans fit me (the jeans that used to be too big), and then I was crying because I’m gaining weight and my 6 pack is no mas, and then I was crying because my room was a mess, because I was lonely, because I missed my ex-boyfriend, because I have no hair, because I have a zit….
WHAT THE HECK??! REALLY?! Where does this crap come from??!?! One thing goes wrong and it’s like the world falls apart!! I’ve been like this for as long as I can remember and I HATE it! I don’t want to be this way!! If anyone reads this who has known me for a while… you know there have been times when my depression drops in 1 min and I’m crying and there is not even a lame excuse as to why. It’s just an emotion- there isn’t really a problem besides my emotions are whacked.
How can I fix/fight this?! Boys I know what you’re gonna say “Just don’t let stuff get you down”. In response to that I’ll say.. You have no idea what this feels like, you don’t understand. I’m pretty sure guys and girls have these emotions that the other just can’t experience. There has to be girl emotions and guy emotions. Really, imagine your dad just died- and someone says “Don’t let it get you down”. Yea you can try, but you’re sure as hell still gonna feel depressed.
It’s similar believe it or not…no, I don’t have an issue that serious to effect me this way, sometimes not an issue at all…BUT the emotions can still be that extreme. Welcome to my world.
And people wonder why I want out so badly sometimes.
I’m tired of being this way. I’m tired of having these emotions. I don’t even know if there is a solution. I’m just venting.
/sigh
Still raining….
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Oct
8
2009
Spiritual questioning.
After some conversations and pondering… I have these questions:
Feel free to comment with your belief.
1. Is every believer a ‘saint’?? Or just Mary etc…
What is a saint??
2. Do only certain designated people/disciples have the ability/responsibility to forgive people?? Jesus gave the disciples the ability/responsibility to forgive. What’s up with that??
3. What is the dif. between flesh and satan/demons for example when you are struggling… is it just with you and your sin nature… or with demons…
More ?s to come..
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Oct
8
2009
Video of the day
EVERY girl should see this.. not just “young adults”. I think I need to watch this about once a day.
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Oct
8
2009
Quote of the day
I hope someday somebody wants to hold you for 20 minutes straight and that’s all they do. They don’t pull away. They don’t look at your face. They don’t try to kiss you. All they do is wrap you up in their arms and hold on tight, without an ounce of selfishness in it.
- Kerri Russell (via rebeccahruscetta)
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Oct
8
2009
Video of the day
This is so awesome. It really is nice to see tv that IS real life.
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Oct
7
2009
My official job title is “Office Manager”
=D
I am so important.
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